Finding my muse

I’m sure everyone who writes has been asked these questions.

What inspires you? How do you come up with your stories? What's your next big idea?

For me, personally, having my debut book be a memoir provided me with an internal muse. I was able to comb through my memories and my life and verbalize the ways I had felt in those moments. Reflect on actions I took and what I maybe should've done differently. It was an extremely liberating and challenging process to carefully and thoroughly analyze each aspect of my memories, to feel every feeling all over again. But I wanted my writings to be authentic and reflect my the truth of my experiences. I can acknowledge that my memories of certain events may be warped or factually incorrect, but they're true to me and have defined my reality.

This, sharing my memoir, is the most terrifying thing I’ve ever done. Things I haven't told anyone in person, I’ve taken the time to analyze and write about. The entire process has allowed me to extend some much needed grace to my younger self, for the things she didn't know that I do. It's also allowing me to extend my current self grace, trust that I’m doing the best I can with the information I have, believe that I’m taking care of my future self with the decisions I’m making. Putting my soul, baring my heart, in this book has been the most rewarding thing I’ve done. I’ve become more confident in who I am and more intentional with all I do.

I may never write another memoir, but that doesn't mean I’m out of stories to tell. Looking at my life and looking forward at my future, I know the kinds of stories I want to see. I want to see stories filled with queer joy. I want to see strong women, strong nonbinary characters. I want to see found families and more meaning placed on platonic relationships. And the best way to see the stories I want, is to write them. I hope you want to read these stories.

Stay tuned for some news of things in the works!